Today I'm writing this blog to talk about how much Dfes matters to me.
I will preface this by sharing my diagnosis; which is autism. Because of this I can not function very well in my home country of the Netherlands. I have issues with travelling alone, can not handle big crowds and overall avoid going outside.
I received my diagnosis in March 2016 and mostly lost all purpose in my life. I had no dreams or goals. I can not work or go to school, so I spent a lot of time at home.
In June 2016 I first discovered DearDream.
I had heard about the project before, but hadn't been super interested. Despite that I bought the New Star Evolution CD because I wanted to see the MV without the watermarks. Upon seeing the making movie I officially fell in love.
My world was opened up to 5 extremely hard working idols in a rookie unit, that pushed themselves to give us the most perfect MV.
Over the time following I started a blog called Dream Card Database because I wanted to share the pretty artwork. I spend a lot of time organising the cards, keeping up with the events and eventully also became an admin of the DreamFes international gamers group on Facebook and started my own DearDream Fangroup to share the love.
I had saved some money to travel to Japan and attend an event called Kiramune Music Festival 2017. But right before it was announced Dreamfes announced the Fanmeet 02. Instantly my mind was made up and I travelled to Japan, with my mother, to attend all 3 shows.
Despite not speaking much Japanese at all I had the most amazing time. The feeling from DearDream was very honest and their enjoyment on stage was so clear. During the first show I cried uncontrolably because I was truly so happy. That trip to Japan made me realise that I felt no stress and I wasn't scared. Japan made me happy.
I decided that I want to live in Japan, working at costuming at Disneyland or an idol company. Upon returning home I started taking Japanese classes. The cover of my notebook was very inspiring.
Because Japanese classes are only 3 hours per week I made a message on my twitter, saying that I wanted to make friends in Japan, to help me practise. Not everyone responded enthousiasticly, but I met many wonderful fans in Japan who let me butcher Japanese in an attempt to communicate with them.
At the same time I also made many new friends in the rest of the world and we all bonded over these hardworking boys.
I attended the 1st live show as well. But this time without my mother. We had made a deal that I could attend the live alone if I learned to take my medication. Within a day it was settled. And this time I travelled from the Netherlands to Japan with no assistance at all.
In December I took the JLPT N5 test and passed. Within a year of seeing DearDream live my first goal had been met.
To say the least DearDream and Dreamfes have done a lot for me. I've become a better person. I got a dream.
It is not just a game project. It is clear that everyone involved with DreamFes cares so much about it, all the staff and cast's love is clear. And the fandom is one of the best I've been in.
I can't begin to describe how sad I am to see the project end like this. Because I just know that there was a lot more in store for it.
So that's why I ask Bandai to please reconsider. Please don't end DreamFes. Please let us continue to share the happiness and love of everyone involved.